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This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Nicholas Knowles. Nicholas was born in Syracuse, New York on January 20, 1979 and passed away on March 01, 2007.  He had just turned 28. We will remember and miss him forever. Nicholas leaves behind his mother, Shelly Knowles, his father, Melvin Youker, a sister, Sara Knowles Anostario, four aunts, Sherry Knowles, Susan Knowles, Laurie Cole and Cheryl Youker, and an uncle, Darryl Youker, as well as several Great Aunts, Uncles, Cousins and many very close friends.  Loved by all, Nick had a way with people. He touched so many souls.  He was strong.  He was honest and honorable.  He was also gifted.  He thirsted for knowledge and soaked up information like a sponge soaks in water.  He accepted all cultures and religions.  He had ideas on everything and loved to discuss things and speak his mind.  Nicholas was always determined and hopeful;  he never gave up on anything he set his mind to. We wish he was still here.  Only the good die young.



Dearest Nicholas:

To honor you, I get up every day
And take a breath
And start another day
Without you in it.

To honor you, I laugh and love
With those who knew your smile,
And the way your eyes sparkled with joy,
Full of life.

To honor you, I take the time
To appreciate everyone I love.
I know now there is no guarantee
Of days or hours spent in their presence.

You are the light of my life,
My gift of love
From our Heavenly Father.

So every day, I vow to make a difference,
Share a smile, live, laugh, and love.
Now I live for us both.
So all I do, I do to honor you,
My precious, beautiful child.
Love Mom

- Author Unknown - borrowed from and in honor of Joseph Morrison Close





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Family Tree
Tributes and Condolences
Shelly our pain is too deep   / Valerie DiCuffa (AUNT)
I Know from my own experience that the pain that we endure from  the loss of our sons is what stops us from having those dreams and visitations. I know that deep deep pain is making it hard for our sons to communicate with us . Do you ever wonde...  Continue >>
Recent Visit from Nick   / Pat Mielke (friend)
I just had a lucid dream with Nick. I won't go into detail about the dream as it occurred before I encountered Nick but what happened was:
- I was walking toward a gas station that was built at the bottom of a slight incline.
- I leaped for...  Continue >>
Crying alone and deep breaths   / Shelly Knowles (mom)
I'm crying here at work and nobody knows;
Not tiny tears but hugh, heart-wrenching, uncontrollable sobs;
Does anyone know?   does anyone care?
Oh Nick I'm so sorry.

If they knew, one or two might cautiously come closer...  Continue >>
The Psychic   / Shelly Knowles (mom)
I visited Theresa Cosco again.  Nothing earth shattering.  idk.  Where you there Nick??????
Theresa said that she saw circles, representing Nick's drawings, I think.  She said that Nick told her he was with me when I drink my...  Continue >>
Little Did We Know   / Shelly Knowles (mom)
Little did we know that morning
that god would call your name.
In life we loved you dearly
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you
you did not go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God calle...  Continue >>
I don't know what to do  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
The Medium  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
Another Day Without You  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
Dear Mom and Nick  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
It's Easter  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
Time Keeps Passing  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
Two Years  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
Where are you?  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
Thinking of you  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
Merry Christmas Nicholas  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
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His legacy
Your Path Through Me  
Open your eyes and you will see
the path you chose leads right through me
What has been and what shall be
the Prophecy here is never free

Just what your open eyes perceive
Budding plants or fallen leaves
And no matter what words you chose to voice
You took this path by your own choice

So follow those who came before
Walk a mile in a different shoe
And soon your path begins to soar
And you remember what you always knew

                                        Nicholas Knowles
Not a survivor by choice  
My Mom is a Survivor
~Author~
Copyright 2001 Kaye Des'Ormeaux

My Mom is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night
when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach
that never wash away ...
I watch over my surviving Mom
who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others ...
a smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door
I see tears flowing from her eyes.
My Mom tries to cope with death;
To keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows
it is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving Mom
through Heaven's open door ...
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore!
I know that doesn't help her,
or ease the burden she bears.
So, if you get a chance, go visit her.
Show her that you care.
For no matter what she says ...
no matter what she feels.
My surviving Mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal.


MOTHER  

Ode to Mother

Oh mother, do not grieve for me
For I am up above you
Looking down on thee

It is with my father
That you gave a life to me
But it is in my death
That truly set me free

I have a soul dear mother
That leads me away from thee
I have a higher purpose
That no one else can see

I have begun my journey
You have prepared me well
I will find the way I need to go
As time will tell

Thank you dear mother
I know you’re always there
I must go on without you
But it is with great care

Please understand me mother
And make sure you know
That I have a higher purpose
And it’s time to let me go


Nicholas


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